Friday, January 15

So Many Things to be Grateful For...

Well, hello there! Happy New Year! We're now at the 15th day of 2021 and although so much has already happened all around our circle of family and friends, I continue to be saddened by how our country continues to divide and how others feel that violence will somehow resolve it. I'm so sorry, Lord 😔

Anyway, I don't want to take up my first blog with a sad topic, but the title is never an understatement because there's truly so many thing we all can be grateful for in spite of the storms in our lives. 

I'll probably follow this blog with some of my sentiments these past few months, but for now I'd like to stick with most of the things I can quickly think of that I'm grateful for. 

* My husband, Noel, is doing much better than the previous months and continues to fight his battle with his new diagnosis of Spondyloarthritis. Hoping that the Lord will use Humira to help with his daily body strains, while we continue to pray for full healing 🙏 

* Kids started their in-person classes this week. All are well 🙌

* We have our jobs, enormous groceries (which I feel would last for only a week then back to grocery store again) 😵, but still able to bless others. 🙌

* All my family's health are good, even my 79 y/o dad who continues to be as active as he can be during this very hard and long quarantine time in his life. 

* I have my girlfriends to fill some of the joys I need in my life and I'm blessed with a very loving small group, that have also become my strongest prayer warriors. 

* I'm able to start over again with the things I wish I missed or desired to have improved last year. 

* I have a God who continues to love me whether I fall short or not and who has been very gracious in and through my life. 

* I have things that I don't even need, but blessed with and the Holy Spirit continues to bring this desire in my heart to share my blessings whether in the know or not. 

I know that I have a lot of other things I am grateful for, but just couldn't think much right now since I'm in the middle of working as well 😁 but my hope for everyone this year is that whatever season we encounter in the days, weeks, months ahead, that we will take time to take a quick step back and remember that it will not be this way forever - there will always be good days and bad days, but a lot of things to still be grateful for. Know that in all things God works together for good to those who love Him according to His ultimate purpose. Let's spread love and kindness - it always changes the game, even when the other person is not likeable. 

God bless us all!

Saturday, May 9

Self-Care in Uncertain Times

I don't know about you, but this is day 55 for me, since we started working from home and distance learning, and I must say it has its ups and downs. It's easier to see it now, since we're left with many opportunities to think.

I'm grateful each waking day, but sometimes I can't help but to be caught up with the busyness, interruptions and more to do list, that I really neglect to get a breather or even to go to the bathroom. I feel like I'm busier now than ever. Whether it's by choice or I'm really just wired to always find something "better" to do, rather than sometimes taking a step back to just BREATHE.

This last project for school couldn't have come at a better time. It's about creating our own Self-Care Plan, which I will be vulnerable enough to share in public and hopefully will help others to examine themselves who are also struggling in some, if not all that I struggle with. The main point...

"When I go through my day on empty, there is not much left to offer everyone else."

Section 1: Causes of Stress
Time Demand:
Being a mother is no joke. With all the nurturing that my children require, the care my whole family needs, work, distance learning, quality time as a family and the dozens of demands needed to run the household, I feel there is not enough time in the day. Sometimes it’s so hard that it’s easy to feel like I’m running on empty day in and day out.

Self-doubt
I know it’s impossible to apply a one-size-fits-all approach, that’s why I try to do my best to give what I can offer as long as I am able to, but the sad part about it is that even if I accomplish something day by day, I know most of those days, I do it with a little attitude here and there. So when I hit the bed at night, it’s hard to sleep right away because my mind is running and feeling the guilt, so I constantly reevaluate what I’m doing, looking for new insights (from parenting experts, Google, or Social Media, which is absolutely the wrong place to seek advice from), and trying to stay one step ahead the following day. I feel like it’s easier for me to question myself and become stressed by the consequences of making a mistake. I guess it’s all part of being a conscientious mom.

When my plans go awry
Being the planner of the family, either by choice or simply because no one else in my family takes the initiative to plan anything, so I take on the tasks. I have to say though, that this is one of my weaknesses because I guess when I do all the effort in planning and all of a sudden it wasn’t happening the way I thought it would, then I feel like a failure or unappreciated. It could be a small thing, but sometimes in the moment it doesn’t matter. It’s just enough for me to feel inadequate. Of course, part of me is also wanting to be in control. I don't attack anyone, but I stay very quiet.

Relationship Demands
During this quarantine days, this part of my stress level has gone up. Although good relationships shouldn’t be a demand sometimes, I can’t help, but feel like it. As I invest the necessary time into my relationships with my children, sometimes my marriage takes a back seat, especially when I have two young children that needs different and more attention. I have to say, there are times when it can also be vice versa. I feel torn between meeting the needs of my children, whether it’s my adult children wanting a heart to heart talk, my adolescent daughter who’s in the stage of discovering herself or trying to keep up with my youngest son who’s full of energy and still having enough energy for a conversation or intimate time with my husband. Then there’s also my extended family and friends who I definitely put on the back burner because of exhaustion from household activities and doing what I can with the little time I have in a day to help the community during this difficult time. So, what makes things worse is I end up having this self-exhausting thought when good enough doesn’t feel good enough. I feel like I’m always trying to do all things right. I give my best, and when I’m done giving, I go ahead and give some more just to be sure everyone’s taken care of or I will feel guilty.

School and Workloads
I enjoy the work I do and going to school, but I believe I become too absorbed by it, that I overwork myself and don’t think of taking breaks because if I do, that’s just another wasted time for me. For work, it makes me feel good that I have my own tasks I'm specifically responsible for (no one else does my job, so I guess there's "some sort" of job-security there - though no one is really secure), but the piled-up work and the lack of pro-activeness from others to get some of work completed can make me feel anxious and stressed. For school, I think I prioritize other things first and procrastinate. Nowadays there’s the combination of distraction from my children while trying to focus on work also, but they need my help with distance learning.

Signs of Stress: 
·       Mood swings. I become irritable and angry – I notice unnecessary things and make it a big deal.
·       Body aches and pains (Headache, lower back and neck, stiff muscles)
·       My tone of voice, it’s with sarcasm.
·       Dry skin
·       Lack of sleep often shows my dark circles under my eyes.
·       Memory loss. I feel like it’s getting worse that I forget so many things.
·       Concentration issues. I’m easily distracted, even when I’m trying really hard to stay focus, my mind is wondering about other things I need to do.
·       Fatigue

My Triggers: 
·       Heavy workload and too much responsibilities. The demands and workload are heavy. I feel like I’m not setting a clear (or clearer!) goals for others, therefore, when issues arise, instead of giving them a chance to take care of it, I end up doing it for them because I feel it’s easier and quicker.
·       Too much to do. I feel like I also put this upon myself because I have a hard time saying no most of the time, especially when I see the need to help. So my to do list is piling up.
·       Family issues. I’m a deep thinker, so when there’s family issues my mind can’t help to be preoccupied with concerns. It affects my mood, but thankfully I’m able to separate my personal and professional life, since I’m fully aware of the consequences it might do to my job.
·       Being criticized.
·       Planning a vacation. I like to travel and I’m also a foodie, so when we as a family plan a vacation, I spend a lot of time researching for places to explore and food to try. I’m also the type who wants to get our money’s worth, so when I plan, I have a full itinerary for all of us by the hour of our vacations. Although, I welcome spontaneity, but only when my plan is going well, if that even make sense.
·       Finding ways to help others. This might sound counter-intuitive as a human service provider, but I think for me it stresses me more when I’m trying to find more resources for my client. I guess I’m an overachiever, which I’m not proud of, since I realize it doesn’t really make me happy. In the moment, I feel like one resource is not enough or there’s probably more encouragement I can give a person, so I try to give more.
·       Exams and homework. I tend to overthink, which causes me to spend so much time on portions that are easy, but I second guess myself.

Self-Awareness: 
I’m aware of my stress and triggers, but again I’m still stubborn, until I start sleeping poorly, feeling tired all the time and no matter how much caffeine I take or eat anything healthy, my body feels achy and feel tired. Then there’s also my mood swings towards my family, but sometimes I’m still prideful to apologize, even if my conscience is telling me, “Seriously, Lovely!”

My Coping Skills:  Both negative and positive. 
·       I pray and it helps to keep me hopeful, that to everything there’s a season, and a time for every purpose under heaven.
·       I stay quiet. However, my family knows that when I’m quiet it means to stay away from mom because I’m not having a good day.
·       I do other things to avoid that one thing that stresses me out in the moment then I would realize either during or after the fact that it didn’t help to undo the harmful effects of stress, so now there’s even more work for me to do.
·       I keep working and end up having back pains and I won’t be surprised about other possible health issues.
·       I go to a room for at least 15 minutes to just breathe and compose myself.
·       I use my massage chair.
·       I listen to music.
·       I read devotionals.
·       I watch comedy or drama movies, while working from home, then I would soon realize that it definitely did not produce a complete relaxation for me.                  
·       I eat too much junk food and drink too much caffeinated drinks that I become sluggish and the caffeine possibly stopped being effective because of over-drinking. 
·       I criticize and yell at my husband or children and I feel that it’s creating tension in our home.

Section 2: Self-Care Plan for the next 6 months (one step at a time)

Sources of Stress
Potential Triggers
Signs of Stress/Triggers
Work
Time
Relationships
School
Self-Doubt
Heavy workload/responsibilities
Too much to do
Family issues
Being criticized
Planning a vacation
Finding ways to help others
Exams and homework.
Mood swings
Body pains
Tone of voice
Dry skin
Lack of sleep
Memory loss
Concentration issues
Fatigue

Positive Coping Skills and How to Implement them
Physical Health
Emotional Health
·       Stay hydrated by drinking water more rather than caffeinated drinks. Add lemon/lime/cucumber to help with the taste.
·       Eat healthier meals and snacks by prepping ahead of time and drink my vitamins religiously.
·       Take bathroom breaks.
·       Join fitness classes again and do it at least 2x a week.
·       Walk up and down the stairs for at least 15 mins every other day.
·       Use my massage chair without looking at my phone.

·       Cup Fill vs. Empty Ratio by removing the activities that drains me and fill my day with what makes me feel good. Remind myself that when I go through my day on empty, there is not much left to offer everyone else. (Just don’t become narcissist).
·       Set limits when asked for help – it’s okay to say no.
·       Talk to my husband about my stresses instead of keeping it in.
·       Ask my family for help around the house.
·       Set aside at least 30 mins to an hour of daily quiet time (read, journal or just listen to music).
Social Life
Spiritual Life
·       Resume date nights with my husband once or twice a month.
·       Go out with friends or hang out at their house at least once a month.
·       Have movie nights with the family.
·       Go to the park or eat out on Sundays with the whole clan. Just like old times!
Pray
Read my Bible and Devotionals
Journal
Listen to Podcast

Potential Barriers
My potential barriers would be my own diplomat personality, my stubbornness, my habit of negative self-talk and being a perfectionist.

How to Overcome Barriers
For me to overcome the barriers, I need to remind myself that health is wealth. It’s really a mind over matter and because I have a diplomat personality, I need to be okay with saying no when I need to. When and if I’m having negative self-talk, I need to shift my thinking and say the exact opposite to myself. To embrace the truth that if I don’t step away to hydrate myself, to go for a bathroom break or even to just get a breather, it will just affect my physical health and my mental health even more. 

When feeling stressed because of doubt, I need to look beneath the surface to find the reasons. Instead of wanting to take over, I need to dig deeper to what matters most, which is to mind my health, my heart, my habits and my relationships. To always be grateful of the not just the big things, but most especially the small things that I have taken for granted. 

Bottom line, please TAKE CARE OF YOURSELVES - we're in this together 💗🙏 

Tuesday, April 7

What This Coronavirus Pandemic Has Done So Far...

Dear All,

I hope this message finds you safe, well and still full of hope. I don't know about you, but this our 4th week, since I started working from home and there has been a lot of mixed emotions for me. Besides journaling, I thought why not resurrect my blogging to release some of my thoughts during this very difficult time we're all in.

I'm not here to share things you already heard in the news or even add to your uncertainties, but I'm here to just honestly share what this pandemic has done to me so far.
  • It sure has brought me to my knees.
  • It has opened more doors of compassion for others.
  • It has helped me understand different ways of coping.
  • It has brought me to tears almost every day just grieving with and for the people who have already been affected by this virus firsthand, their families, the people who lost their income, the people who are alone at home or facilities, the victims of abuse, the homeless, the unprivileged, etc. 
  • It has tested my patience.
  • It pushed me to work even longer hours every day, just to avoid being bored.
  • It has brought me more reasons to be grateful.
  • It has challenged my capabilities (sewing masks, making face shields, painting rocks like there's no tomorrow, draw some fun and encouraging messages on the sidewalk for walkers and even cooking) 😉
  • It has challenged my tolerance for negativity. Sometimes, we think just by knowing something and saying it justifies our feelings and excuses us from doing the right thing, but what we really lack is confidence of just doing it. Sometimes, it's out of fear (fear of hurting others, fear of being judged, fear of being talked about, fear of being wrong, or even just fear of change). I learned that there are times when you need to choose to remove yourself from too much negativity in this world, whether that's from the fake news from every media there is, people who just can't seem to find anything to be grateful for, and of course too much bad news. I had my days when I didn't realize that I was just being fed with too much bad news in one day by watching the news and reading about the devastation that this COVID-19 has done all over the world and continuous to do so, that I started feeling tension in my body, headaches, lack of sleep, I mean just name everything that stress can do to you, I was already having it, so I requested for my family to just watch enough news for the day (if we really need to) and do other things that will either uplift our soul or keep us from thinking too much. I have to say, it has been helping us one day at a time.
  • It is teaching me the true meaning of being still and knowing that God is still in full control.
  • It has made me appreciate the sun as I don't like being out in the sun too much, since I get discoloration on my skin so easily, but this time, that's the least of my worries - I try to work outside my patio as soon as I see the sun come out 😉
  • It has given me time to go through things I've set aside for months even probably years. 
  • It continues to make me realize what matters most in life. No material, no money, or bigger/better stuff can ever amount to spreading love and seeing people the way God sees each of us. 
  • It has allowed me to spend more time with my Creator. 
  • It has given me more understanding of how loving, merciful and powerful God truly is. 🙏
  • It has made me watch more movies, shows, YouTube videos, DIY's and look at memes like never  before 😅
  • It has disrupted my sleeping patterns and I've been sleeping at 4am and waking up at 8am 😳
  • Last, but not the least, it has made me consume calories after calories each time “I get up” 😁 and can't imagine the rate we’re having to replenish our stock of food 😏 I'm grateful for the provision Lord, but OMG! I will be rolling out of the house once all of this is over 😬
  • It has proven that NO VIRUS CAN STOP A HUMAN HEART'S COMPASSION FOR OTHERS. LOVE lives on. 💓
I'm sure there's more I will be discovering while we're in these dark/heavy days. I look forward to celebrating God's goodness and praising God each day I wake up - as it is a great gift to have.
I sure hope you are all taking care of yourselves, staying as healthy and safe as possible. I encourage you to find ways to bless others as you are able - it sure helps to keep your hearts healthy 💗

I do want to end this by giving a HUUUUUGE PRAISE AND THANK YOU TO ALL OUR FIRST RESPONDERS, HEALTHCARE WORKERS, HUMAN SERVICE WORKERS, AND ALL THE BUSINESSES AND WORKERS who continue to work and stay open for all of us. 👏👏👏👏👏💓💓💓💓 YOU ALL ARE AWESOME!!! May the Lord bless you all with His abundance. 😘

Till next time friends! Blessing always 💋

Friday, September 15

Grateful Heart

I'm here at Starbucks doing my homework and I just had to take a break. So what better way to take advantage of my break, but to even more use my brain to blog 😄

As I write my persuasive essay homework, I thought of the word, "grateful". The first people that came to mind, besides my Almighty Father, is my family. I thank God for them soooo much! Gosh! The thought of having to sacrifice our time away from each other while I study melts my heart. I have the best support system ever.

People ask me how I do it, but I have to say, it's all God's grace. Look, I'm not getting any younger and with all the responsibilities I have and finding ways to be able to manage my time is lifted up in prayer in all times. I wouldn't know how to handle it, unless I pray about it first. That's my first go to, in everything I do. God has shown me His faithfulness and He has blessed me with a great family who understands and cheers me on. However, I know that this journey is not about me, but to be able to help more people as I use my God-given talent. You see, I volunteer at my home church, Willow Creek Community Church's Care Center as a Case Worker. The more I go there, the more I want to be able to help full time. It's not about the money for me, but it's seeing that my ordinary life can be used to be a blessing to others. People think that we're just there to offer resources for those in need (although that is one of the purposes we're there), but honestly, I leave that place even more blessed than those who received some help because meeting different people of all walks of life, carrying heavy loads (emotionally); it makes me realize that my own load is nothing compared to these people who sometimes just want to be heard. My goal is not for me, but for others to no longer feel alone. I want to be able to pray for them and so much so to walk alongside, if given the opportunity.

I find myself, learning to be grateful each day because of the opportunities God gives me. Whether it's a heavy burden that I will have to carry for awhile and/or it's something I have to lift up in prayer about, I feel honored and grateful to be used by my Creator.

Being grateful in everything shifts your thoughts from worry to trust in God. Even when it's hard to find the reason to thank God, I can assure you that it will feel a lot better to let go and let God do what He knows best... what's best for you and everyone. You may not understand the answer to your "Why's" in this side of heaven, but the God who loves you more than you will ever know has planned a good future for you and your loved ones.

Start small and do it daily... you'll see what I'm talking about. I lift you up in prayer, my dear friends, that you will experience God's supernatural grace in the hardest area of your life.

Blessings!!!

Tuesday, August 29

To be me, or not to be me, that is the question.

Okay, I'm not Shakespeare, but I thought the title fits very well as I think of how people become so addicted to attention and praise because that's what social media does to you.

Today's devotional from Proverbs 31 Ministries was so fitting, I had to post it... Wrestling with #OOTD.

It's heartbreaking to see some of the people I love find temporary satisfaction by what people think of them rather than finding their true identity, potential and beauty in Christ, who created each one of us. I know we have our own insecurities, but our problem is that we tune out our true self to be someone we're not. Weighing in on the many lies that others lives and beauty are always better than you. Know that it's the devil's greatest tactic to deceive you.

Look, I have nothing against people posting in any social media medium, but when it's everyday about you, you, you? About your beauty (you go with your confidence 👊), body images whether it's yours or not, etc. you get the picture... it just breaks my heart when people become narcissist. Google Narcissism, and the meaning says it all.

My dearest friends, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL JUST THE WAY YOU ARE. You have so much to be thankful for and are so blessed. Everyone, even "Christians" go through hardships in life. None of us are immune to problems. We all go through it. It just depends on who you put your faith in. No need to be someone you're not. You know deep in your heart that these temporary quick fixes on the outside still leaves some void in your heart. Allow God to lift your head up and accept your true beauty, your true purpose. Allow Him to show you that the best is yet to come, for you have been made in the image of God and He desires for you to experience the best version of you, the blessings He still has in store for you. When the inside is crying, patching it up with things of this world will not heal it. But when the inside is pure and filled with the love of God, your beauty will radiate even more on the outside and will inspire people to want to know your secret and your Savior too 😍 

Let me quote Steve Harvey's advise to his audience, he says, "Stop putting your faith in people, and put your faith in God where it counts the most.” *Triple BOOM right there!* 🙆

My dedicated song to you: Scars To Your Beautiful by Alessia Cara

Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight. - 1 Peter 3:3-4

You are altogether beautiful, my darling; there is no flaw in you. ~ Song of Songs 4:7

What Was I Thinking???

     I'm sure many of you can relate when I say, "Where has the time gone?" Noel, my husband, and I were just planning our road trip for our 20th anniversary earlier this month and now that's done. Then school starting, both for my children and I. Yep! I'm going back to school! Or I should say, I'm already back in school. And boy, what was I thinking? I have 2 classes, English and Psychology. I'm not only working full time, but I also have kids to attend to, a husband I need to make sure gets part of my time as well, and I volunteer as a Case Worker at my home church, Willow Creek, I mean... I'm exhausted! 

     I've asked the Lord, if I made the right decision to take on this degree after not being in school for over 2 decades now, and all I get is the words, "keep on keeping on!" Everyday now, I worry about the time wasted without reading or doing homework. There's so much reading to do, plus deadlines every 2 days. There was a time I felt like giving up, but the faces of my two older children who are also in college kept popping in my head. I can't give up. I feel like if I give up, it'll discourage them to stay in school. I don't know, I'm probably too hard on myself, but that's how I feel right now and that's what's helping me to stay the course. I know my hard work will pay off. I just need to take time to breathe and be still in the presence of God. 

     I can't let my complaints and worries take over me. Not everyone are given this opportunity and while I have the chance to pursue my goal of being a Counseling Psychologist, I will lift this up to the Lord, for Him to guide my every step. I know it won't be easy, but as long as I have His back and the support of my loved ones, there's no stopping this mama 😏

     So, if you're in a situation where giving up is starting to creep up on you? Look up and ask for wisdom to make things clear for you. Now, there are times when it's really time to let go, but that's when you have to let go and let God do what He has planned for you. Remember that there is always beauty in the ashes. Not all stories have to end up the way you had hoped it to be, sometimes, you have to let God show you the bigger picture He has in mind all along before you miss out on His blessings. 

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. ~Jeremiah 29:11

Thursday, February 9

When You Question Friendship

Hi All! I haven't posted anything for awhile, but I'm baaaack and looking forward to writing more. 

So, about the title of this post... hmm?! Well, have you experienced a time when you felt rejected, outcast, set aside by a friend whom you've known and trusted more than half of your lifetime? 

Have you doubted their intentions, their loyalty, sincerity, respect and/or the love they truly have for you?  

I have and it sure hurts like crazy!

I guess due to circumstances in both our lives, we've slowly grown apart. We both have different interests now, I guess. I'm married and things unfortunately did not work out for her on that end the first and second time. Our kids are growing and life just keeps happening. But I thought, no matter where life takes you, good or bad, true friends will face the highlights and storms of life with you? I thought, true friends knows no envy, but will celebrate your high moments and cheer you on regardless you both are in the opposite ends? I thought, true friends will not tear you down, but lift you up? I thought, true friends will keep your deepest secrets, defend you  and pray with you when you need it the most? 

Are those just a figment of my imagination towards friendships? I hope not. I cling to God's definition of true friendship... "Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends. You are my friends if you do what I command. I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master's business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you" (John 15:13-15). Jesus is the pure example of a true friend, for He laid down His life for His "friends." What is more, anyone may become His friend by trusting in Him as his personal savior, being born again (old self become new) and receiving new life in Him.

One great example of true friendship is between David and Saul's son Jonathan, who, in spite of his father Saul's pursuit of David and attempts to kill him, stood by his friend. You will find that story in 1 Samuel chapter 18 through chapter 20. Some pertinent passages are 1 Samuel 18:1-4; 19: 4-7; 20:11-17, 41-42.

Proverbs is another good source of wisdom regarding friends. "A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity" (Proverbs 17:17). "A man of many companions may come to ruin, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother" (Proverbs 18:24). The issue here is that in order have a friend, one must be a friend. "Wounds from a friend can be trusted, but an enemy multiplies kisses" (Proverbs 27:6). "As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another" (Proverbs 27:17).



I thank God for providing His words and wisdom to me and using His people to help me during these times of feeling rejected and alone in friendship. For reminding me that His love isn't based on me or my performance, but it's simply placed on me and it's a place from which we must live, loved. We are all loved by God, period, no question mark.

I would like to share an interview with Lysa Terkeurst regarding this topic at Focus on the Family. Either listen to it, if it's still available or read the transcript. Hope it will bless you as much as it has me. 

Overcoming Rejection to live in God's love by Lysa TerKeurst (Book is called Uninvited) Part 1 and Part 2.

I pray that as you may relate to my story, that you will find peace in knowing that God is our ultimate friend. He's the one I turn to "AT ALL TIMES". Who knows my deepest feelings and comforts me with His presence as He listens to my on going stories. I know that part of this journey I'm in is to learn to forgive and accept that my friend and I are in different stages of life right now and I have nothing, but good wishes for her. I hope someday this will all come to pass, but whatever God has planned for our friendship, I pray that we will both learn and grow from it for the better. And although I'm still healing from the pain of rejection, I still love her and can still promise to be there for her when she needs me the most. 

I've been praying for a special blessing for her as this is the only thing I can do from a distance that will not interfere with her busy schedule. And I'm also praying for myself, that God will continue to teach me and allow me to live life to be the best friend anyone can have as God guides my mouth, my actions and my thoughts that will not crush anyone's spirit, but lift it up for the glory of God. 

For I am proud to say that "I am a friend of God."

Thursday, September 29

Moved by the song, "Why" by Nicole Nordeman

I can't help, but be moved by this song over and over again. Mixed of stomach turning due to guilt of all the things I've done wrong and feeling of overwhelming gratefulness to God for not giving up on me. If you listen and imagine closely, you will feel the truth of this song.

Why by Nicole Nordeman - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2F3OKPIJ75M

Thank you Lord for this heartfelt song called “Why”. Thank you for the reminder that I am loved by one amazing God like you. Thank you for taking my place on the cross and dying for someone like me who so deserve what you endured. Thank you for your glory and for your amazing love. I pray that everyone will come to know you even more and feel the joy and peace of being loved by you.

I'm a sinner, loved by my Savior, Jesus Christ.

Tuesday, September 13

God of All Comfort

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, - 2 Corinthians 1:3

This has been my theme verse for the past 2 weeks now. The Lord knows everything about us that as I wrestle with worries and anxiety on this 40 Days of Blessing Others until my birthday, Oct. 17th and the big OCC shoebox packing party I'm having on Oct. 15th plus the hurt I'm feeling towards my friend, God has been comforting me with His messages. Here's a few...

Sunday's devotional had (9/11): 
God will encourage you! As you pour out your heart to Him, He will say to you, as He did to His disciples when He was here on earth, "Take courage! It is I. Don't be afraid" (Matthew 14:27)

Yesterday's devotional had (9/12):
God is not merely an empathetic listener. You may feel better just for having verbalized your troubles, but God doesn't stop there. He says: "I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you" (Isaiah 41:13)

Today's devotional (9/13):
Help - that's what you need! If you bow your heart in prayer to Him right now, the God who cares for you will listen - and encourage you - and help you find a solution. He promises!

Feels so good to call on God without any busy signal and to pour out your heart to Him without Him ignoring you or neglecting you. In His divine way, He makes His answers known. Whether through someone or something, you can rest assure He will be there when you need Him the most. 

Thank you Lord for your love. Though I don't deserve it, you give it to me freely. 

May you, reading this, take heart that God loves you and is crazy about you. Pour your heart to Him, you will know what I'm talking about :)

Friday, May 21

Your prayers are needed...

today is Project HOPE's Feed the Hunger Program. i have to be honest with you all, i was really expecting many will feel the need for this particular ministry esp. when i posted it on facebook, but i guess i shouldn't have expected too much =( i failed to just allow the Lord to do what He wanted regardless of how much help we get from others. though we continue to be grateful to our repeat sponsors, i was really hoping to be able to gather more funds in order to help more, but sadly, besides our yearly sponsors, only our family responded. for a second there i was really devastated, i neglected to remind myself that as long as the Lord is in the midst, whether we feed 1 out of hundreds that we at Project HOPE desire... i'm sure the experience and help that will be provided will have an incredible and unforgettable impact to us esp. to those who will be there. that what is important is as long as the Lord continues to be glorified and His people are helped, that's all that really matters.

is it wrong to feel discouraged for not receiving the help i expected? i'm sure the Lord understands what i feel. forgive me for feeling this way. i just really feel bad for those who are in desperate need of something we always take forgranted of. the types of food that we can so easily get, but to them what they eat is what's being thrown away by so many of us. i don't know i just don't get it i guess. i hope the Lord help me understand why others just can't take that step to open their hearts to a major need like this. why it's so hard for them to unclench (if that's even a word) their fists? whew! sorry, i just really need to get that out of my chest. i feel the brokenness of these people, i'm sure it'll be more heart breaking once i witness it first hand. oh gosh! i probably won't be able to serve to the best of my ability coz I'll be crying the whole time =(

anyway, getting back to my soul purpose for this blog. i would like to ask for your fervent prayer for this Feed the Hunger program. my sister, my bro-in-law and with the rest of our crew are on their way to the location as i type this blog. i heard that one of the hardest things they are experiencing right now is the hot, dehydrating weather. please kindly include them in your prayers this moment. that they will all feel the Lord's presence from beginning to end. that every person in every corner of this facility will be blessed by the power of the Holy Spirit. Lord, let Your will be done and may You be glorified in every way. Lord, You gave us this opportunity and so we ask for Your provision, strength and guidance that all will be well according to Your will. in Jesus Almighty and Precious name, AMEN!

Tuesday, May 11

2010 Feed the Hunger

We at Project HOPE have been blessed once again with the opportunity to be the hands and feet of Jesus Christ to the under resourced children of Tondo, Manila Philippines, stricken with hunger and sickness.

With the help of our dear brothers and sisters of Yeshua Emmanuel Community Church and in leadership of Pastor Manuel Ocampo, we will be serving another "Feed the Hunger" program on Saturday, May 22, 2010. A couple of our members, Treasurer, Yvonne Sales (my sister) and Videographer, Aries Sales (my brother-in-law) will witness, volunteer their time and provide what is needed in our behalf during this time.

Due to the space, we have estimated only 100 people to be fed. But just like last year when we fed 200 street children in Payatas, Philippines, we will also be serving them 2 dishes, rice and a juice box already on a container for easy distribution.

What does this mean to you? This simply means that you are also given the opportunity to extend help to this unpriviledged fellowmen, who have no voice to express their needs and sufferings.

We at Project HOPE have come alongside them to be their advocate to YOU, who have been blessed with more than enough, on their behalf. These people are the ones who live less than $2 a day. To them, two meals in one day is a miracle. Their daily routine is rummaging through trash to find scraps of food in hopes to have at least one meal in one day. At times, they force themselves to sleep through hunger hoping that the next day will be brighter, but there are days when they feel that all hope is gone.

On the other hand, how many of us have wasted food because of ridiculus reasons and too much of it just makes us sick? These poverty-stricken people are the opposite... how they desire to be able to feel and say, "I had too much to eat" or "I'm full" or "I'm stuffed".

We understand that many are still facing financial hardship. However, living in U.S.A. already gives us more reasons to be thankful for and a step ahead to those who are less fortunate. We earnestly ask for you to take a step of faith and give what your heart tells you... help make a mark into the hearts of this hurting people.

For those who do not know our organization, Project HOPE is a non-profit family ministry. It was established in 2005 and since then we've been continuously supported by the generous donations of ordinary and compassionate people like you. We're not a big organization, but we believe in the power of "compassion in action". It doesn't take a big organization to help the forgotten. Paraphrasing what Mother Teresa once said, "If you can’t feed a hundred people, then feed just one.” Friends, the size of the contribution is not what matters most. The key here is to have the heart to do it. Just feeling sorry for them doesn't change a thing, but acting on it brings hope to the hopeless.

Please do not think that everything has been taken cared of by somebody else and your contribution will not make much of a difference... I mean, imagine if everyone else starts to think the same way? FRIENDS, YOUR EFFORT COUNTS. Let us set aside our differences and instead let's come together to do what is right and what is needed... that is to be able to feed this people at least one meal on May 22nd. With your help, we will be able to feed 100 poverty-stricken people OR MORE IF GOD BRINGS THE INCREASE. Just one meal my friends and believe me it will be rewarding.

We also believe that prayer is a powerful and necessary tool and so we ask for your support in praying for this next humbling task the Lord has put in our hearts. Pray for the Pastor & my sister, Yvonne that they will be able to present the message of the Lord with clarity and with grateful heart. Pray for all the volunteers, that they will be safe, have the strength and God's heart of compassion to serve this people with love. That we will have all the resources needed to make this feeding program a success. Pray for every person that will set foot on this place that they will not only be filled with the abundance of food, but with love for the Lord and hope that is only found in Christ.

TO DONATE:
Please visit our website at http://www.walk2remember.com/phupdates.html
or by MAIL:

Payable to Project HOPE
263 Comstock Dr.
Elgin, IL 60124

I will keep you all posted regarding the progress of "Project HOPE's 2010 Feed the Hunger Program".

On behalf of the Project HOPE team, I would like to thank you all in advance for your support and prayers. May God bless you for the action you will take, your thoughtfulness & generosity!

In His Service,

Lovely Miranda
Project HOPE
www. Walk2Remember.com/projecthope.html

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