Tuesday, August 29

What Was I Thinking???

     I'm sure many of you can relate when I say, "Where has the time gone?" Noel, my husband, and I were just planning our road trip for our 20th anniversary earlier this month and now that's done. Then school starting, both for my children and I. Yep! I'm going back to school! Or I should say, I'm already back in school. And boy, what was I thinking? I have 2 classes, English and Psychology. I'm not only working full time, but I also have kids to attend to, a husband I need to make sure gets part of my time as well, and I volunteer as a Case Worker at my home church, Willow Creek, I mean... I'm exhausted! 

     I've asked the Lord, if I made the right decision to take on this degree after not being in school for over 2 decades now, and all I get is the words, "keep on keeping on!" Everyday now, I worry about the time wasted without reading or doing homework. There's so much reading to do, plus deadlines every 2 days. There was a time I felt like giving up, but the faces of my two older children who are also in college kept popping in my head. I can't give up. I feel like if I give up, it'll discourage them to stay in school. I don't know, I'm probably too hard on myself, but that's how I feel right now and that's what's helping me to stay the course. I know my hard work will pay off. I just need to take time to breathe and be still in the presence of God. 

     I can't let my complaints and worries take over me. Not everyone are given this opportunity and while I have the chance to pursue my goal of being a Counseling Psychologist, I will lift this up to the Lord, for Him to guide my every step. I know it won't be easy, but as long as I have His back and the support of my loved ones, there's no stopping this mama 😏

     So, if you're in a situation where giving up is starting to creep up on you? Look up and ask for wisdom to make things clear for you. Now, there are times when it's really time to let go, but that's when you have to let go and let God do what He has planned for you. Remember that there is always beauty in the ashes. Not all stories have to end up the way you had hoped it to be, sometimes, you have to let God show you the bigger picture He has in mind all along before you miss out on His blessings. 

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. ~Jeremiah 29:11

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